What? It's not Friday, but HEY I'M BACK!! With NEEEEEWWWWWSSSS

Hi! Hey! Hello! I've returned from my honeymoon and I am now a wife! I have a husband! I'm a spouse! whaaaaaaat. Go check out the Instagram for photos and stuff.

I know. It's crazy and ridiculous and we're all concerned, but at the same time it's wonderful and amazing and everyone is super happy, so it's good stuff people, it's good stuff.

Speaking of the fact that I'm married now, Fiancé can no longer be called Fiancé because he isn't a Fiancé anymore, so I took to twitter and I asked for your help:

 

So it's official. Fiancé is now "The Mr," which I love and it sounds like he's a Doctor Who villain's cousin or something. I thought about going long-form and calling him "The Mister," but that made me think of those misting fans that they place in amusement park lines to keep people refreshed and happy and cool, and while The Mr does keep me refreshed and happy and cool, it just seemed like a strange version of objectification.

Before I continue, I want to give a massive thank you to all of my guest posts!! Weren't they amazing? THANK YOU all for keeping Awkwardly Alive, well... alive while I was away. You are wonderful. If you, dear readers, haven't gone and checked out my guest posters' work, please do so immediately. They are all amazing.

In other news, I've given a lot of thought to the blog and its future and I have fun news! First of all, I'm upping the frequency. I will now be posting twice a week (Mondays and Fridays), which I hope is a good thing. Second of all, if you support the blog on Patreon, your perks are about to get way better (I think?), but want your input: What perks would you prefer on Patreon? Right now, all the perks that are listed apply, plus I'm adding weekly vlog posts where I ramble at you on video exclusively for Patreon supporters, but if you have ideas that I'm not doing, I want to hear from you in the comments below. My goal is to build community and get to know each other better, and ultimately, I want to make you happy, so hit me with your suggestions!

Alright, I think that's all I have for you right now, blog followers. I love you. Thanks for handling my rambles.


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NaNoWriMo

That's right, Duckies!! It's November! For so many people, this month means Christmas preparations, turkey selections, and training for the biggest shopping marathons of their lives. And then there's the Nano-ers. For us, this month is the most exhilarating challenge of the year: Write a novel (50,000) within the month of November.

Why? Because we're all insane. Obviously. In fact, right now, I'm all "Emelie, stop writing this blog post and just get back to your book. THIS IS WASTING PRECIOUS TIME." But then the other side of me is all "Hey, stop being an asshole. You have to write for the duckies, too, and if you don't,they'll cry." (In  my head, you all cry when you miss me.)

Anyway, the reason I'm writing this is because if any of you are embarking upon this amazing writing challenge...

I BELIEVE YOU CAN DO IT.

Why?

BECAUSE YOU CAN DO THIS.

And when all else fails,

JUST KEEP WRITING.

So many people give up on NaNo because they think that what they write isn't brilliant or wonderful or pulitzer prize worthy. Well, guess what, it's supposed to be a first draft, so cut yourself some slack and JUST. KEEP. WRITING.

If you want to be my buddy on NaNo, find me under the name "Siv Samuelson" and I'll totally buddy you back. This month, we need all the support we can get to power through the writer's blocks.

You ready, duckies? Because I so think we've got this.

"And We Are Just Breakable Girls and Boys"

I've posted various vague posts on Facebook about this, and today, I posted a rather blunt one in a blogging group that I'm a part of:Picture 1 First of all... Thank you to everyone who responded. Every single comment (and there were way more than I was expecting) was encouraging and you have no idea how much I needed each and every one of you today. The responses ranged from "Just keep powering through. You'll get there." to "Don't go for funny. Go for real." or instead of advice, some of you just said "This too shall pass."

I haven't gone a day without crying in 2 weeks and 4 days. In those 2 weeks and 4 days, I've lost so many things and I feel like I've gained so little. Maybe I'm just not seeing the silver lining, but that's usually something I'm so good at doing. Maybe the depression is just winning right now. I've never really been depressed. Ever. I've been sad, sure, but depressed? This is totally new territory for me. I've never woken up sad until now. I've never not known the upside of the situation.

I have never felt more alone and lost in my entire life, which is why I haven't been the best blogger lately, among other things. I'm scared. I'm lonely. I'm hurting. I'm at this point where everything in my life could be labeled as "Status: Pending" and it's the scariest place I've ever been. I've never needed Big Love like I do right now. I've never needed good news like I do right now.

I honestly don't know what else to write, so I'm going to leave the rest of it to Ingrid Michaelson, because her "Girls and Boys" album has been my soundtrack through all of this.

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